….to me.
It’s not a very happy day because I don’t have Jim with me to celebrate. It’s been a month already since he passed away and everyone keeps telling me it will get easier, but I wonder.
I have made the decision to move back to Indiana where my family is. Jim and I had discussed this many times and he thought that’s where I needed to be if something happened to him. I want to move back home and it sounds easy enough until I stop to consider I have a machine shop, a farm, 4-wheelers, a truck, a camper, a tractor, and a multitude of miscellaneous items to sell before that can happen.
On the positive side, I have someone who is interested in the property. He is also a machinist and loves the set-up for both the house and the machine shop…he may even want to buy the farm equipment.
Have a great weekend everyone!
Hi Sandi, I'm not so sure it gets easier when you loose someone so close to you but the pain dulls with time. Yesterday was my sons birthday and he would have been 27 but his life was ended when a young driver hit him. it's been 6 years now and I still cry about it. Its terribly hard but I'm not bawling all the time about it. Now I think of the good thoughts and not his death. It takes time and you have to be willing to give yourself that. People that haven't had that kind of loss mean well when they say things like that but you need to allow your self to grieve at your own speed and if someone doesn't like it, just ignore them or don't talk to them about it. (((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteThank you Lisa...I am so sorry about your son...it was hard enough to lose my husband but I can't imagine the loss of a child. My prayers are with you. It's funny what sets off the tears...some days there are none and other days I just want to pull the covers over my head and cry all day...and I know crying is good.
ReplyDeleteSandi,
ReplyDeleteThere is no set time for grieving, no right or wrong way. Everyone is different. You will always think of your husband, and sometimes you will cry from missing him, and sometimes you will smile from a sweet memory.
Sending you warm hugs on your birthday.
Happy Birthday, Sandi. Do something you like to do today...a walk in your favorite place, a glass of wine...be gentle with yourself today.
ReplyDeleteAlice is right, there is no set time for grieving. When I lost my husband in an accident 20+ years ago, it took me a few years before I felt like I wasn't actively grieving anymore. But the grief and sadness eventually will subside and leave you with all the happy memories you have of Jim.
Sending you a gentle hug today.
Oh Sandi, I've been thinking of you so much. I just can't imagine. I'm sure the grief is still very intense, but I think you have to go through it. It's part of the grieving process. He's still with you you know. You just can't see him. And that's the part that hurts. I love you Sandi. I had wondered if you'd be going home to Indiana. I know it is what is best for you. I hope the buyer works out and you can go home. Get yourself a little treat. You deserve it and you need to take good care of yourself! Happy Birthday!
ReplyDeleteThinking of you ♥
ReplyDeleteWow...sounds like you're well on your way already. If someone is interested in buying the property all inclusively, that makes it very easy for you!
ReplyDeleteBut back to the main point- I'm so sorry to hear that you're dealing with so much and that you had to go through this in the first place! With Jim in your heart, you know you're doing the right thing, even though that doesn't make it any easier.
Happy Birthday- and I'm thinking of you!
Happy Birthday Sandi...even though it is bittersweet. You're going through alot....take your time with things...i don't know if it gets easier, i think we just adjust to new and different situations. Indiana's not too far from me....it's about 2 hours to Bloomington from where live. Hugs, Sue
ReplyDeleteThank you all so much...I have made such wonderful friends thru my blog. I wish that someday I could meet each and every one of you and give you a big hug (((HUGS))).
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday, Sandi!
ReplyDeleteI hope you found a little joy on your day:) But that sounds great that everything's working out for your move back home. Fingers crossed it all goes smoothly:)
Happy Birthday sweetie....sending lots of hugs your way...
ReplyDeleteThough not the happiest birthday, I wish you the best.
ReplyDeleteI'm sure I would pull the covers up too.
It sounds like you have a mountain to climb in terms of moving back home but it sounds like a bit of divine intervention is helping out as it should.
xxxxoooooRo